Week One Done

Well, sort of. I started this latest adventure officially last Friday. I am doing the Optifast program through Kaiser. In the first phase of the program I am completely on meal replacements in the form of shakes, soups, and snack bars. Thursdays are weekly check-ins with staff who make sure I am doing okay on the program, followed by a class to teach me skills for when food is reintroduced into my diet. So, since my first check-in and meal replacement was last Thursday and my next one should be* this evening, I’m going to say I have week one done.

How did it go, you ask? Mostly very well. Oh, you have follow up questions. Yes, I was hungry. Very hungry. I think Day 2 was the worst, but I made sure to drink lots of water and I don’t think I had my supplements dialed in. Timing is key. I was waiting too long between shakes. I have since adjusted and it’s gotten much better.

I don’t care about watching other people eating, or smelling the delightful food being consumed. My attitude is that this part isn’t forever, and I will be enjoying food again soon enough. This attitude may go downhill as the weeks go on, but I’m hopefull that I will be able to remember that going forward. As long as I don’t have to cook anything for anyone, I think I’ll be fine.

The one thing I’m still struggling with is exercise. Once I get going I am really good about exercising. But, once I break the habit it is difficult to get back on that wagon; or more accurately, the treadmill. I know I enjoy working out, I know all the benefits, but actually getting going is easier said than done.

This is another case where I know what to do, I just haven’t done it yet. But, I did prioritize getting the meal replacements dialed in for week one. Maybe week two’s focus will be on fitting in the fitness.

*I say “should be” because instead of going to tonight’s class I will be attending a graduation ceremony. Sadly, the high school refused to change the time/day of graduation based on my scheduling conflict.┬áMy bummed-ness over missing the first weigh-in is overshadowed by seeing family members graduate.

Square One – Back again.

Square One – Back again.

Well. Here I am. Back at Square One – yet again.

At several different times in my life I have been quite successful at losing weight. Never have I actually gotten down to my goal weight, but I have reached a point where I have felt healthy, fit, and full of energy.

Typically, I am able to maintain this level for a good amount of time. Years even.

The last time I focused on weight loss I was doing great, working out all the time, eating a healthy diet, doing all the stuff I know I should be doing. As other things started taking my focus away from that healthy lifestyle weight crept back on while I wasn’t paying attention.

Sure, I noticed my pants starting to get tighter, my dresses and shirts getting shorter, and the number of steps taken on my fitbit dwindling to embarrassingly low levels. With the other things distracting me, I was able to put it off, and “I’ll start next week” it to death. I also used the classics “I don’t have time” and “I’m too tired.”

Before I knew it, I was forced to buy clothes to replace the ones I had donated because they had previously become too big. Of course I donated those clothes, I was never going to wear that size again!! Although I have played this game a few times before, this was actually the fastest I have ever put weight back on.

So, starting tomorrow (no, seriously I am starting tomorrow) I will be on a medically supervised program through Kaiser. It is very similar to a program I did 16 years ago, but with a little more structure and a lot more support.

Welcome to my journey. There will be whining and complaining. Willpower and triumph. Agony and joy. Hopefully somewhere along the way there will be smaller clothes and longer workouts.